Archive for March, 2006
Before I could think about tackling my social anxiety problem, I had to break the incredibly monotonous routine I had adopted. First of all, I had to get out of the house. As humorous as this may sound, my first order of business was to simply get outside.
March 31st, 2006 | Posted in Starting over | No Comments
After suffering what can only be described as crushing depression and anxiety (the worst I have ever experienced), I started to see a very small improvement as each day went by. There was a small flicker of hope and optimism after nearly two months of blackness. I was still far from normal, but at least [...]
March 28th, 2006 | Posted in Starting over | No Comments
In the past, my main goal had been to find a social anxiety cure – something that would transform me into a non-shy, outgoing, and likeable person. Somewhere, there was a cure for my ailment - a treatment that I had not stumbled across yet - a breakthrough procedure or medication that would eventually surface [...]
March 25th, 2006 | Posted in Medication, Starting over | No Comments
There is one personality trait that I’ve been fighting my entire life. I believe that this “attitude,” alone, has cost me dearly in terms of social interaction and getting the most out of life. I’ll try to describe it as accurately as possible; however it’s hard to put into exact words.
This behavior comes and goes, [...]
March 22nd, 2006 | Posted in Starting over | No Comments
As depression became more entrenched in my daily life, I thought that I had nothing. I was completely alone and I had nothing. It’s funny how things can be clouded in this type of situation. For example, if I had stepped back for a second, I would have realized
March 20th, 2006 | Posted in Starting over | 1 Comment
Shortly after leaving my job in the city, I moved back to my parents’ house. They live in a small town about an hour from the city limits. I grew up there, and it was definitely weird going back. I had only ever visited on the odd weekend since I left home years ago.
It [...]
March 18th, 2006 | Posted in Starting over | No Comments
In 2002 I had reached the end of my rope. Extreme anxiety became an all too familiar part of my day. I had gone as far as I could in my company. Faking my way as far as I could - and even my finely tuned avoidance techniques were no longer effective. I didn’t belong [...]
March 16th, 2006 | Posted in Starting over | No Comments
Peeling back the layers and starting from the lowest common denominator is something that I have been hammering away at for many of my previous posts. I apologize for the repetitiveness, but I want to convey the importance of this, and also be as detailed as I possibly can.
March 14th, 2006 | Posted in Currently speaking, Starting over | No Comments
I have come a long way in the past few years. In fact, I can honestly say that I’ve become a different person entirely – which is good, because I hated the person I used to be. My only regret is that it took so long to finally start moving in the right direction. I’ve [...]
March 12th, 2006 | Posted in Currently speaking | 1 Comment
For many years I felt as though I was simply destined for failure. I mean failure in everything, not just socially, but in every aspect of life, love, and success. Try as I might, I could not shake the feeling that there was some mysterious force steering me towards that ultimate outcome.
March 11th, 2006 | Posted in News, views and comments | 1 Comment