There is one personality trait that Ive been fighting my entire life. I believe that this attitude, alone, has cost me dearly in terms of social interaction and getting the most out of life. Ill try to describe it as accurately as possible; however its hard to put into exact words.
This behavior comes and goes, depending upon events in my life. Its essentially a defense mechanism that rears its ugly head as an almost desperate reaction to negative social encounters. It is usually the only thing I have left, after having everything else (seemingly) taken from me. It sometimes lasts hours, and other times days, weeks, or even months. (more…)