Success is something Ive always found elusive. Working in a hot kitchen day after day for little more than minimum wage reinforces that fact, while Im reminded of things that could have been and opportunities lost. Sure, the job is easy, and Ive become quite comfortable in my rut, but something is missing. The safe situation Ive created is a social phobs perfect solution to the anxiety of a real-world job – a real job with real pay that might allow me to move on in other aspects of my life (house, car, etc).
The way I see it, you have to possess several qualities in order to succeed in the working world. Granted, there are individuals that do very well while avoiding most social interaction; however, these people usually possess other extraordinary talents.
Unfortunately, Im not exceptionally brilliant in any particular area. In fact, Im exceptionally ordinary. So where does that leave me? Well, without in demand qualities and talents, social interaction must play an increasingly large role and is quite often the deciding factor when it comes to career success.
Ive known many people over the years that were no more talented than I, but succeeded because they were not afraid to interact and communicate with others.
If you could imagine the majority of the population sitting around the same talent level, it only makes sense that those who find ways to get ahead are usually the ones that are able to distinguish themselves socially.
For a socially anxious person of average ability, this is not good. My current situation is living proof of that. I have settled to the bottom of societys hierarchy as I slave away at my menial job; shut off from the rest of society – working behind the scenes.
In a way, I love the protection, but I also long for more. In fact, I know Im capable of so much more.
I feel as though Im wasting my best years – Damn this social anxiety.