http://shyandquiet.com/2008/01/03/the-company-christmas-party-more/ Social Anxiety Disorder And Everyday Life Wed, 19 Nov 2008 21:50:40 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.6.2 http://shyandquiet.com/2008/01/03/the-company-christmas-party-more/#comment-15731 anonymous Tue, 04 Mar 2008 05:41:39 +0000 http://shyandquiet.com/2008/01/03/the-company-christmas-party-more/#comment-15731 why is it so hard to feel a sense of belonging and trust that sense? i feel so angry when once again a job is lost due to my anxiety. i am barley making enough to survive now and was just bumped to a new position because i too tried to be apart from the social game, you put it better, at work. Now my goal is to settle into this new one atleast i work pretty much alone. the people were right, i am calmer alone. I cant say i feel calmer trying tis other thing. its always a struggle and a break down. my emotions are strong and stress tolerance so weak, atleast i still have hope to try. though sometimes i feel shredded. and yes the arrogent ones make me want to hurl. please know that if you ever cried over this sa issue, i am crying with you. there is a balance between being comfortabley alone and comfortabely known. Our own comfortable place in this balance is where we can protect who we really are and be a okay part of the particular group. how we feel or what we want to be seen as ? which do we accept only? okay like hey i feel like a complete ass, i will only be seen as okay and normal. i let nothing else needlessly in. i already feel low enough. Oh god let me please cherish the moments i actually enjoy. i have it too. i am 25. and it all started when i was 13. I seem normal but my quietandshy will always keep me at a poverty level. there are just to many vulcher like people out there in the big bucks circle for me to fathom with. easy come easy go in my dreams, from your fellow sufferer. you would be a great writer. but todays world is so hustle bustle and i am lowing down (i work fast to hide well and i am tired) and let the crowd just roll on bye. True connections are my hearts desire too but how often does that happen? why is it so hard to feel a sense of belonging and trust that sense? i feel so angry when once again a job is lost due to my anxiety. i am barley making enough to survive now and was just bumped to a new position because i too tried to be apart from the social game, you put it better, at work. Now my goal is to settle into this new one atleast i work pretty much alone. the people were right, i am calmer alone. I cant say i feel calmer trying tis other thing. its always a struggle and a break down. my emotions are strong and stress tolerance so weak, atleast i still have hope to try. though sometimes i feel shredded. and yes the arrogent ones make me want to hurl. please know that if you ever cried over this sa issue, i am crying with you. there is a balance between being comfortabley alone and comfortabely known. Our own comfortable place in this balance is where we can protect who we really are and be a okay part of the particular group. how we feel or what we want to be seen as ? which do we accept only? okay like hey i feel like a complete ass, i will only be seen as okay and normal. i let nothing else needlessly in. i already feel low enough. Oh god let me please cherish the moments i actually enjoy. i have it too. i am 25. and it all started when i was 13. I seem normal but my quietandshy will always keep me at a poverty level. there are just to many vulcher like people out there in the big bucks circle for me to fathom with. easy come easy go in my dreams, from your fellow sufferer. you would be a great writer. but todays world is so hustle bustle and i am lowing down (i work fast to hide well and i am tired) and let the crowd just roll on bye. True connections are my hearts desire too but how often does that happen?

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