I am typically the one who self-sabotages before I even get the chance to fail at a potential relationship with anyone (boyfriend, friend, family) and each time they show disappointment, frustration, or make jokes of how they expect me to fail, I automatically take it as validation to my inner critic–which is ever so kind. I have experienced the light bulb going off in my head to find the positives and thereby attracting it in others, and it works up until I get let down by losing the focus.

Like you, I write quite a bit about my personal experiences with life. I have only made them public on occasion, but tend to “freak” at the idea that people I know are judging me negatively behind my back. I look up to you for being so brave.

p.s. I have bookmarked you, and I hope you find the freedom you deserve.