I have come a long way in the past few years. In fact, I can honestly say that Ive become a different person entirely – which is good, because I hated the person I used to be. My only regret is that it took so long to finally start moving in the right direction. Ive wasted a lot of good years wallowing in self-pity – prime years that Ill never get back. Thats really a shame, but I try not to think about it. Whats done is done – Im just glad I have the opportunity to start living a somewhat normal life. (more…)

Is social anxiety disorder a chemical imbalance? Is it genetic? Is it environmental? Is it a combination of the two? I dont know, and whats more, I doubt if the experts know either. (more…)

I have a hard time relating to people. Its not that I intentionally want to be seen as quiet and weird, it just turns out that way. Its not that I hate people, its just that I find it difficult to connect with others. Most of the time people make me very uncomfortable and, try as I might, there always seems to be this negative energy that makes me feel stupid, useless and inferior. I simply don’t have the confidence to make any sort of presence in a social situation. Ironically, this negative self-programming is a self-fulfilling prophecy in a way, since I will eventually display physical signs of the worthless loser I keep telling myself I am. (more…)

Welcome to my blog!

I feel that somehow I should be writing something dramatic here as this is the first post of what I hope to be a very in-depth journal of my life as a social anxiety sufferer. However, one of my first steps to recovery is to ditch my obsession with perfectionism. So, however this page looks, thats what you get.

I will try to post to relevant categories so that this site has some sort of structure. The categories will be listed on the right hand menu of the web page. The site is in blog format so that my most recent posts will appear on the homepage regardless of what category I place them in.

I hope my writing and style are adequate and that I am able to express things in a clear and concise form – although I may ramble on sometimes.

I intend to post on a daily basis.

Drew