Intro
Hello, my name is Drew and I suffer from Social Anxiety Disorder. I am 28 years old and in many ways, have just begun living. For the first 35 years of my life I was in constant fear of just about everything, but it was mainly people, or to be more specific, interaction with people, that I feared the most.
Fear of social situations had been a part of my life as far back as I could remember. I really didnt know how to act normally around other people. I didnt know how to interact with others without feeling worthless and weak. I didnt have the social skills many people take for granted. I didnt know what it was like to live without this constant feeling of worthlessness around other people. I was a mess and things were not improving as time went on.
I started this website today as a diary of sorts. Much of what I will write about is deeply personal, but this is a deeply personal topic. Needless to say, anonymity is important in this regard. Much of what I will write about will be for my sake, but if other sufferers of social anxiety read this and can gain some sort of comfort from the fact that they are not alone, then thats great also.
If you are reading this and do not suffer from this condition, it is my hope that it will serve to educate others as to how horrible social anxiety can be. This condition affects 7% of the general population, so its very likely that you know people who are suffering at this very moment.
While I do not consider myself cured of SA (social anxiety), I have learned how to cope with it and not allow myself to be controlled by it as I have in the past.
This blog will not follow the usual format of daily updates in real time – although sometimes I will write of things in my current situation. Instead, I will be writing of things in my past – when things were much more extreme than they are today.
By the way, I decided to name the site after something that relates very closely to my experiences. Of all the lines Ive heard over the years, shy and quiet has won out as the one most used to describe me as a person. Everyone, from family members to teachers, has consistently used that term to describe me. I dont like it personally, but I believe it is the most accurate phrase used by society to describe me. It puts things in perspective and is a constant reminder of who I truly am.


Hi Drew,
Greetings from Mississippi. I am a 35 year old single female that can relate to some form of social anxiety. Mine mostly stems from some past experiences as a child. I will share that my faith in Christ has been my sustaining hope through it all; and I do appreciate your willingness to open up and share your thoughts and experiences with others who suffer with the same struggle.
God blessings to you!
Hi Drew!
I just happened to stumble across this site when I was seaching up “social outcast” on google because I guess that’s how I feel sometimes because how I view society is probably different from most people. I’ve read 2 of your blog postings so far and it was really interesting. I really appreciate you posting up some personal happenings of you past and your other posts have really given me a bigger perspective. So thanks for posting them up! (:
Hi from California,
I googled fear of smiling and came across your website and I’m soooo glad to have other people who have similar experiences. Shy and quiet is how people described me since I can remember. It’s nice to know I’m not alone and there’s a place to share!
Hi Drew,
I found your web a few days ago and I am so thankful for your posting. I can relate to your situation since I have the same experience. I used to think that I was the only person on this planet that had this issue. Knowing that there are other people that I can share is awesome. I want to ask you regarding the book “How to Conquer Social Anxiety Now” – have you read the book and find it useful? Or that is advertisement done by other people posting on your website. Please let me know. Thank you for sharing with me.
David.